merindu kepastian :: art fazil
Andai kau menjadi pelangi
Biar ku jadi awannya
Agar kita selalu bersama

Andai kau menjadi sang duyung
Biar ku jadi karangnya
Agar kita sentiasa bersua

Andai kau menjadi merpati
Biar ku jadi sang bayu
Agar kita sering bertemu

when i love a song that says something to the effect of "if you're a flower, i'll be manure, so you can grow with me", as much as the language is beautiful, i know something has flown out of the window

angsty cynical teenager doesn't sound nice
visceral flower child is even more laughable

different! and creative! seem endless now
the want to be different is common
[something like "change is constant". yark.]
between fight and flight is the blind man's sight and the choice that's right
i wanted to be different
i wanted to push the door when it screams in painful bright red caps "pull!"

i just want to sit down and breathe now,
and maybe if i breathe hard enough
i could blow boulders up by just pointing at them randomly like they do with kungfu,
i could conjure hundreds of men with identical dance steps brimming in their heads,
everything in the world would shudder with beautiful synchronicity,
everyone in the world would want to mesh their fingers with mine
[and not just "wanna hold my hand"].

i'll just camp here in my cool dry place with turquoise yellow and mustard green
i shouldn't try so hard.

[MARCUS AW: it just means that i'll stop trying to search for absolutes, just like how i'm spurning labels.]