with my feet on the dashboard

so i'd really like to be all cool and relac chill, with my feet on the dashboard, and windows wound down and going places and i dont have to drive and i can fall asleep. but now it feels like theres been an entire toolbox thrown into the scheme of things. india next year with the boys feels too far away and the uk is even further than the eye can see. erwin's been saturnian, to say the least, and im fast losing interest. the high from the achievements of the last week is already running thin. i didnt seem to miss harith the whole time he was away but now that he's back theres that emo stack that comes along with having to say goodbye to someone im now too used to have around. all i can think of now is how much i'd pay to be with rhs in cambridge.

children, wake up.
hold your mistake up
before they turn the summer into dust.

if the children don’t grow up,
our bodies get bigger
but our hearts get torn up.

we’re just a million little god
causing rain storms,
turning every good thing to rust.
i guess we’ll just have to adjust