hello

hello vania. when you said i was the only one in class with questionable morals i wasnt pissed or anything, because i pretty much already knew that myself.

hello others. actually i'm sick of being told that i'm all fun and easygoing and haha-haha [i get that a lot, especially now with graduation and christmas greetings]. i'm fun and easygoing and haha-haha because when people treat me like shit im incapable of being any way other than acting like i am weak shit. i prolly dont remember this as well as i want to but i remember julienne's accusing stare at me in ts5 and calling me a poser and all i could do was The Smile and Laugh. by that i reached new depths of mental exhaustion, not able to defend myself even outwardly. The Smile and Laugh?! how about The Dont Judge Me or The Fuck Off You Bloody Cunt. oh i dont know. even if i did use any of those i'd prolly be the over-reacting bitch and everyone'd be like oh she didnt mean it. so why even try? i'll just spread my legs for everyone to have their way.