-FOR HER-
how will i die if i fall into a bottomless pit?

i've just admitted that i miss you
i've just conceded to needing you
i still keep this steely veneer,
cruel facade
and so, you will never know how much you are
i cry for how we laugh
and cringe from this sea between us
and still, i will never tell you how much you are
oh well

i keep on falling
in and out of love with you
i've never loved someone
the way i love you
[or at least i think so]

oh well
i was forced to watch you
i really was today
i knew not to watch you
BUT i have always been weak
with every glance
a wince from a familiar longing
i'm still on the same train, still the same
couldn't come up with anything new
you
you
you
i still hate you

am numbed but still i bleed
-FOR HIM-